2009 ;

I still miss you so....


In afew days time, it's going to be a brand new year.
Somehow, gained afew and of cause lost afew too :)
Lost someone very dearest to me...
She's someone who will always be there for me when i needed her, likewise I'll also always be there for her when she needed me to be.
We used to be the closest and shared almost everything together.
Some unpleasant things took place and she choose the wrong path which lead to us being aquaintance now.

But i'm glad she took a U-turn and is back to herself like how she is in the past although we're no longer the same.
Hereby wish her all the best and hope that 2009 will be a better year for her =)

Will blog about the gained when i'm back home tonight. :)

So lost ;

My sleeping routine is so so different from others. :( So from today onwards, i'll have to switch back my sleeping time... Or else i would be like a vampire sleeping only in the day. I'm so sick of it. I promise myself i'll sleep early from tmr night onwards. Today's the last night i'll sleep at this hour. Cry myself to sleep every night?? Hope not... So, auto please :) That's all for now. Turning in soon as my father's unhappy alrdy. Don't know what's wrong either. He's flaring up soon. It's so obvious. So i got to SIAM first. Lol.

Back home ;

Time checked : 04.41am

Didn't know i actually decided to come back home tday. LOL!

Previously was @ Timah with my girls :) Decided to come back home as i miss smelling my small pillow. Haha.

Initially, wanted to go over to East Coast to join them. But felt that it was rather far away from where i was at. So decided to go back home ^^

Will blog about what had happened this few days tmr :) I'm dead beat. Gonna turn in now. Going over to Kaixin's probably tmr morning. Yup!!

Merry Christmas everyone! Hugs~

Apology ;

I'm sorry about every single thing. Will i be forgiven??? :(

Dad's Birthday ;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST DAD♥♥ ;
(Love you to the max although i always get scolded.)

You all must be thinking why i woke up so early. Hmmm..

Was awake by some calls. And came to my lappy to update lo. Going out for early dinner at Panjang, 5pm.

And aftwhich, dad's going to send me over to hz's. Gonna go visit his mum. Will get delicious delicious food for her ^^ I miss her so much.. HAHA!

Was alil pissed off ytd. He sent dad a birthday greeting and the both of them ended up joking here and there. And i'm so so so curious lo :(

Both my dad and hz says it's a secret :(:(:( I so so so want to know the msg content la! Be back with photos if there is any. See if he wants to take any. HAHA.

Ning ;

Disappointment like again ;

Sighs, i'm utterly disappointed with someone again. And this time round, it's the same person. (?) Why do you have to do such things when it doesn't even concern you? I really don't understand why you're doing so much for. (?) I've kept so much for you and yet this is what i get back from you? This have eventually taught me something... Which is... No one can be trusted. Not even the one closest to you. No... I'm really at a lost now. I don't know what to do. Why do you have to push me to the far end? No room for me to breathe. And please look at yourself before passing remarks ok. I've had enough of you.. I won't fking cover any fking things for you anymore. Really very disappointed once again :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:( NO ONE CAN BE TRUSTED!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday ;

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO LIM QING SHUN.

{too bad i don't have his pic.}

Stayed over ;

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Over to Panjang. Met up with him and Tianshun. Took 190 over to Lot. Went to have our dinner tgt @ Foodcourt. Then for my favourite ice-cream :)

He left @ 9plus. The rest went over to 302 for drink. And when Sis and i were about to board the cab, she decided to stay out overnight.

We walked back to 302 to look for Sb and Jos. Sb and Jos cabbed over to Kranji while i went Limbang with Wei2 to look for Qs and co.

Somethings cropped up in the early morning. Cabbed over to look for Ning and the rest.

(cropped from Alicia's.)

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO LEE HONG KEONG.

Interview ;

Initially Ning was suppose to acc me for interview.

But went alone instead as i was rushing. So cabbed over to Jurong Shipyard Pte Ltd for my interview. Waited very long for the interviewer. Hmmm.

And when i was about to leave the interview room, the interviewer came in. Lol. And he asked if i was about to leave. Haha. Interview was alright :) A quick one.

Left when i was done. Took bus over to Jp. Met up with sis and cabbed over to Lot. Met up with the rest there. Kaixin was there as well. The guys played a prank on sis. Lol.

Soon, he came over as well. And then followed by John. Waited for J and Ts for very long. Went to have our dinner @ Foodcourt. Had the same food again. Lol.

Waited for Sis to knock off then all of us headed to 302 for food. Aftwhich, cabbed over to Sb's place for drinking session. Ning and Leng came later on.

Drank and then left to Sunshine place for late supper :) Had duck noodle again. Shared with Sis as it was a big portion. Ate then homed.

Jp ;

Last min decision of meeting up with Kx :)

Left home @ 7.30pm. Was waiting for bus when dad rang me up. And he sent me over to Clementi mrt-station.

Trained over to Boonlay. And i got missing there. Haha! Finally found my way to the taxi-stand. Waited for kx's arrival. And we went shopping for alil while.

Aftwhich, Coffeebean to get my favourite pure choc. Regular size :) Then cabbed over to Limbang. Straight cabbed over to Westmall.

Watsons to get more of Ellips. Then mosburger to eat. Had 15 mussels among us. Laughs. And also peach tea. Aftmath, cabbed over to Kx's.

Meet up soon again ok? ^^

Overnight ;

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Attend dad cousin's wedding lunch and solem @ Conrad C H.

Lunch ended pretty early @ 4plus. Mum drove me back then drove aunt and cousin back home. Prepared then cabbed over to Lot.

Met up with them there. Acc-ed them for their dinner. Had my favourite ice-cream ^^ And he left @ 9plus. Acc-ed him wait for train.

Jos, Eileen, Jeff, Sis, Ning and I headed to Sb's place tgt with her. Initially, they wanted to have mahjong game but cancelled.

Acc-ed Ning back home to change then met up with Leng. Cabbed over to Cdans to get a bottle of Martell from Jimms Pub. Cabbed over to Sunshine.

Met up with Sis and co. there. And i had a fall. Slip and fall. My butt still hurts :( Aftwhich, headed for our drinking session. Just the 4 of us :)

Aft drinking, walked over to Sb's. Unpleasant things happened as well. Damn pissed of with that irritating bitch. Hmmm.. Eileen left in the morning.

The rest of us stayed there :) Slept...

Disappointing ;

Had a heart to heart talk between some of us. And something unpleasant happened too. Only one word to describe everything. {DISAPPOINTMENT} Why do such things have to happen? Don't know why the hell such ppl do exist. And i was pretty shocked too. And somehow, broke down too when i feel that everything now is all just shit and nothing else. Right now, there's only 2person in my mind. They're someone so dearest to me. My darling girls. Who i'm sure that they will be there for me no matter what happens. It used to be ** ***.. Somhow some unpleasant stuffs took place and therefore, we're not in good terms anymore. I don't deny that i still do miss her. Miss chatting with her. No boundaries between us. We shared almost everything between ourselves. I miss her so much. But nothing can salvage our friendship anymore. Or to be exact, my Qad? Hmmm... Those peeps were still the one who treated me the best. I'm like a lil sis to them. They dote on me alot. Everything's my own decision, i can't blame anyone for that. Only my carelessness. I've had enough :(

Ellips ;

I miss you...



This is how Leng's leg look like.


Bunny.


Ellips for Sis :)


Ellips for me to try out :)


3 diff colours of Ellips.

Fetched me over to Lot as Ning's waiting for me.

But she alr left when i rang her up. What a sad case. Hmmm... Went Mouzzy as sis' working alone. Acc-ed her. Ate my favourite 3C chicken and mango juice ^^

Went to get Ellips pills which Sandy recommended :) Hope it's of good use! Heh. Thanks, loves.

Sb came down during night time i suppose. Tgt with her maid as well as Yiting. They brought down new stocks :) A busy day i can say as the sales tday's not bad.

Helped her abit with her stocks. Then left to look for Leng behind long john. And most importantly, he went to the arcade previously and caught a bunny for me. (Pic shown.)

Bee was there as well. He bought bubble tea for all of us. Weets* Aft which, acc-ed Ning to wait for her bus then left for early supper alr.

Railway mall for pratas. Bought my favourite Pure Choc from Coffeebean :) Ate and then homed while the rest went Sb's.

White Viewty ;

I'm so in love with LG White Viewty. The one in WHITE :D
Gonna go look for job then get that phone asap :)

Tears ;

Still the one who understands me the best :)

No doubts that i still shed tears whenever i think of you... You really taught me alot. I used to cherish you. But i made a wrong move. Tears started rolling down my cheeks whenever we talk to each other... This time round, it's not on the phone. Else i would be tearing more terribly. (?) I admit that i'm a changed person now. In all of your eyes, i'm no longer the Kailin which you guys know. For all i know, i still miss all of you no matter we've not met up for months. (?) Those care and concern from you guys will never be forgotten. I'm still thinking... Why did most of you stopped contacting me? I guess i should know the reason :) But i'm unsure. Will never forget how all of you treated me in the past. Treating me like your lil sis. Thanks alot. You guys definitely taught me alot alot. But i didn't had good use of it... And the me now, one word to describe (sucks). I feel so sucky now... Sighs~ If only we could go back to how we used to be like. (?)

Strike off ;

Dearest Kx msged me in the morning. Claiming that she wanna get me my Ralph Lauren perfume to stock up as my current one's gonna be used up soon :) Hereby thank her first! Love her to the max. Can finally strike it off. Weets :D

Drinking session ;

Ytd night went drinking with my girls ^^ Halo Bar...

He sent me over to Ning's and he dropped by for alil while too. Ning's dog kept going near him. Lol! Around 9.30pm, sent him off alr.

Waited for Ning to be done then cabbed over to 302. Dropped her cheaque into the box then met up with the others. Cabbed over to Halo Bar seperately...

Drinking session @ Halo Bar ended at 1am plus. This was when something unpleasant took place. We went searching for exits. But wrong route...

Leng then had a fall. Sent her to the clinic which is located opposite 302. Aftwhich, sent her up to Jq's. One of my friend then sent me back home :)

Disappointment ;

Seriously, this kind of feelings sucks. I don't know why but i just feel that... I've trusted the wrong person. A person who is linked to me, a person i thought would never ever betray me. But now i realise, this person actually betrayed me. Hais. I don't know why. Is this particular person siding others instead of me? Someone who is forever linked to her. Hmmm. It's a great disappointment. I'm really very disappointed by what that person does. I don't know why this person has to do this kind of low down things. Sighs~ Why? Can anyone tell me why? I loved this person very much and i dote on this person too. Never ever want this person to get hurt. But what did i get back in the end? Get betrayed... This tells me something... Nobody in this world can be trusted. Not even a single one. From now on, i will never ever trust anyone ever again. Really very hurt by that person. Time will never heal this. Because that person is someone so dear to me. Only can hope for the best for this person. Hope nothings happen to this person ever again. Can say that this person is someone who i won't wanna lost. But i'm wrong... Not a trust worthy person. SIGHS :(

Paranoid ;

This person is weird. He thinks everyone owes me. He loves to speak in a very weird manner. There's things which he's hiding. I hate him :) Cause he's crazy...

Sunday ;

• He came to fetch me over to Lot.
• Bought my food and drink.
• Over to Bee's place.
• Slacked.
• Fetched me over to Lot.
• Train over to Westmall with Sis.
• Bought mos chicken& stuffs.
• Cabbed home :)

Will be meeting up with my dearest Alicia and Bernice tmr ^^ Westmall with them :)

Boring sat ;

(I miss wearing school uniform.)

Such a boring Saturday. Stayed at home throughout :( So sad right? Sighs.

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Dilemma ;

What should i do?
What should i say?
What can i do?
What can i say?

Seriously, right now....
I don't wish to be bothered by anything.

I don't know wth i'm thinking...
I don't know what i want either.
All along, you've been the Mr Good.
While i'm the Ms Bad.
Is Mr Good and Ms Bad compatible? (?)

Home sweet home ;

• Over to Lot.
• Dinner with Leng and Ning, him :)
• Slacked as usual.
• He went off first.
• Over to Bee's place.
• Mahjong games. (Sis, Sb, Eileen& Bee)
• Cabbed to Sb's @ 6am plus (?).
• Slept.

Christmas wishlist ;

Eau de toilette spray ;

Mini Black Pink Pony Handbag

Metallic Big Pony Polo

Who's the kind soul who is willing to get me all 3 of the above? LOL!

One is enough. Haha!

Anyone of those would make me damn happy.

Our table's ;

Why is everyone of them saying that i've changed? What i heard is really hurting... You used to treat me like your lil sis. But last night you told me that i've changed. And that really gek xim. Sighs. What i can say is... I'm still the old me. The one you dote last time. I miss everyone of you!!!!!!!!!!

Absence ;

Life's contradicting. My words too :) I admit... Only can pray for what i want can come true. Hope things would be better for him. Praying hard for him. Hopes nothing happens to him. Nothing befalls on him.